Very, Very Heartfelt Message from A Reader. Very Touching.

This one says it all. This reader is called SBNG (Shattered Bitter Nice Guy). I thought this guy's autobiography was very touching and very succinct. He'd wrote me to say that he felt that white girls in the U.S. had treated him badly when he was growing-up, and I encouraged him to tell his story in his own words. (Forgive his grammar, for crying out loud. Have a heart.)

SBNG's Story

As for my life story, should I start from when I was young or when it made any real signifigance?  Well I'll start from the very beginning.... I'm Mexican/Hondurian and don't really have any ounce of white in me.

When I was in 2nd grade I only had three friends.  One boy was Mexican and the two girls, well let's call em Girl A and Girl B.  Girl A was a Asian girl.  She always treated me nicely and helped me out since I was extremely shy.  We became good friends as children.  Girl B was a Mexican girl who was nice but a little on the wild side.  Well, as kids me and Girl A spent a lot of time together. My parents thought we were dating cause I didn't come home 'till really late from her house and we sometimes played the usual childhood games, Doctor that sorta thing.  Girl A always protected me from the mean white girls that always tormented me. I wasn't really good-looking, but I was more the innocent naïve type. Anyways, fast-forward...

In 6th grade, me and my friends parted ways, since I moved-out of the district.  I got sent to the worst school in the district and got tormented by all kinds of people.  Though, that was the beginning of a new era.  I started standing up for myself and I became a one-of-a-kind thug of sorts. Well during that time my reign was from 6th to 8th grade.  Most people feared me and the boys just stayed out of my way. I mean come on, 5'9, 170-lbs by 8th grade with a good amount of muscle?  Well, when I left thuggery behind, I got robbed of power; that sort of deal.  After I was robbed of all powers, I found out that it was impossible for girls to talk to me.  I was still kind and really shy but every fucking white girl in the school treated me like shit!  I got called names ranging from beanpicker, fruit picker, border hopper, illegal immigrant, coconut, field labor and more.  Basically, those white bitches threw every insult at me in the book.  While the other races didn't treat me as bad, the Mexican girls started doing some of what the white girls were doing, but nowhere near as bad or as horrible.  The Asian girls, what few we have here, took sympathy for me and they were the only people that provided any comfort, what little there was- not even my own parents did that.

Well at the end of 8th grade, my cousin and Girl A got raped.  I felt really bad about that because my former status made it feel like it was my fault my cousin has a two year old son now- but Girl A didn't get pregnant from it, though. Well after that, I entered 9th grade.  I thought the ridicule of being called ugly and racist names by white bitches would stop.  Boy was I wrong- it was just beginning.  I still put up with their shit and now I just snap back at the fucking pampered spoiled-ass pussies.  Listen to those pampered-from-birth pussies that act like the world revolves around them. They act like they are the Fucking Queen of the LA-DEE-FUCKING-DA Universe!! FUCK those white bitches that think like that!! I need to have their asses sent to Mexico to show them what hard work and NO PRIVACY IS!! I've lived there for one year in a village and there was no private bathrooms or showers. Those bitches ridicule me when I can write better than them and unlike them, I am NOT SEXIST!!  They treat men like bullshit and like trash!  Whenever I stand up for myself, white girls overtopple me and say I'm sexist and SHOULDN'T stand up for myself!  What the fuck is that?  You hate men AND Mexicans and you think I am gonna show you respect for that?  Nuh uh...  You have got to be fucking kidding me!  And I'm not just stereotyping white girls, that's what MOST white girls here act like!  They think they ARE NOT spoiled What the fuck?!  You come to school in blazers, $120 pants, nice shoes, watches and all groomed and perfumed and shit?  That's not spoiled or pampered?  HA!!  They think men are way below them 'cause of all the damn gifts they get bought.  Oh, and for me not being nice?  Well lets see....  I pay for girls lunches, I buy them candy, I get em drinks, I bought this cute Mexican girl in my class a gift.  Tell me that is NOT NICE!!  This is all from my free will, not 'cause I'm forced....  Oh and come Friday, well...  5 offers for dates in one day is nice...  Until I find that most of them are for money!  3 girls admitted it was for money, one was so desperate to go to the prom that she actually told me that! I dunno... I am not that bad looking but I am a lot nicer than everyone else at school... I mean, look at my friend's line: "Keep a white girl?!  HAHAHA!!!  You have got to be fucking kidding me!  I wouldn't be so stupid to keep those fucking spoiled bitches!  I just use em for sex!"  I'm not kidding!  He just dates a girl until he has sex with them then dumps em!  "Badboy type equals GREAT in a girls' book."  Anyways... 

With the exception of one or two friends, ALL of my other friends have made their own "tactics" for white girls.  I even hear them go as far as saying "As soon as I'm 18, I'm hauling my ass back to Mexico.  The girls here don't apprieciate shit." Down where I am, as I said, it's more of a "fuck em and leave em" policy for white girls.  Over here, if you cry or show sensitivity you're a pussy.  If you DON'T cry or show sensitivity, you're a uncaring prick.  Girls only want you to be sensitive towards THEM.  They don't give a fuck about whats happened to you.  I've gotten to the point where I'm plain-out honest because I've stopped caring about being sensitive.  Let me give you an example.

There's this girl in my class that's talking to me, she goes on and on how her boyfriend is a selfish pig and how he doesn't respect her.  She's pregnant, and then he kinda fled her.  She asks me for an "honest" answer.  When I ask her how long they've been going with each other before sex, she answers with: "Two weeks."  Then I respond with: "Well...  If you didn't spread your legs in two weeks, maybe he'd still respect you?"  Well, I get hit with a rash slur of insults about how insensitive I am how mean I am.  I also get hit for NOT feeling sorry for the slutty bitch, therefore I get "Insensitive Prick" and "Fucking Pig" thrown-in, too. Well I don't like showing sensitivity if it only gets me stepped on!  When I go to Mexico, I don't really speak much Spanish.  Maybe enough to buy food, buy drinks, ask where the bathroom is and a few other things.  Down there, I don't see women yelling at me and pestering me to buy them stuff.  Why is that?  Well because they were raised to NOT be SPOILED FUCKING PRINCESS BRATS!!  Why is it that when asked about "Mexicans", white girls here think of the words "POOR" "TRASH" "IGNORANT" "STUPID"  That's the thinking that really pisses me off.  Well at least in Mexico, I'm not forced to buy women stuff.  And they actually like kindness.  Wow, what a concept! 

That's about the majority of it condensed to make it as small as possible.

Signing off- SBNG

I tell yas...

Sigh. This was really painful to read. It really was. I don't think I can add very much more...

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"Sexual selection is in itself an extremely complex affair, depending, as it does, on ardour in love, courage, and the rivalry of the males, and on the powers of perception, taste, and will of the female." -- Charles Darwin. (Emphasis mine.)

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